Reading is my hobby, it is my passion. There is nothing like a good book. Whether it is the Bible, self help, a novel or a good magazine I truly enjoy sitting in the quiet of the day with a cup of hot tea and my book. I never thought I would enjoy college as much as I do. I find myself intrigued by the many Bible classes that I am taking. So much, that I have read the entire book before this semester has even started.
In the past year, I have found out that I can write. I love to write.
I am happy to say that I am being published….I will soon be featured in Chicken Soup for the Soul.
And if that wasn’t enough….
This morning, I received and email from my professor. It simply said. “you have no idea what a blessing you and your writing has been to me. I am so fortunate that you took this class and I see nothing but great things in your future. I am sending you this email to ask you to consider publishing your last paper that you wrote for this class. Here are some links to get you started. Please do not waste your talent, I know that you will be able to help many people some day, as you have helped me in my own life. God is blessing you daily Crystal. I am once again truly honored to have met you and please keep in touch.”
One of my favorite quotes is from F. Scott Fitzgerald, it simply says I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start over again.
Warm and fuzzy, happy and incredibly content perfectly describes my feelings this morning. I see relationships being restored. I hear laughter where there used to be crying. I see a future where there used to be doubt. I hear long and meaningful conversations where there used to be deafening silence.
It is funny how I used to think things were falling apart, now I see how they were perfectly and patiently coming together. It takes time. lots and lots of time. I am finally at a place in my life that I can honestly say I am happy. I am happy because I am at peace with myself. I spent so much time trying to make others love me, I forgot how to love myself. Oh, I am still a work in progress and I have a long way to go. But today, I choose to be happy. Life is about choices, we have to make them everyday whether we want to or not. so today….choose happiness. choose forgiveness.
The dictionary describes the word “content” as a state of satisfaction, a state of peaceful happiness.
The Bible says in Philippians 4:11 (NIV) I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be “content” whatever the circumstances.
This morning as I sit in my favorite chair listening to the birds sing me a song from the feeders, I realize that I am perfectly content.
(anything that happens in my life from now on is just a bonus!!)