Hello….My name is Crystal…I am an addict.
It’s true!! I can’t stop.
The ladies at the gas station drive through know exactly what I want before I even ask for it. I need 2 Red Bulls every morning. My kids know that we have to leave early for church on Sunday so we can stop and get Mommy’s Red Bull. (they think I only drink them on Sunday morning…I’m such a bad mommy!!)
As Easter approaches, I find myself frequenting the seasonal candy isle for Cadburry Mini Eggs. Those tiny little colored hard shells with the rich creamy chocolate in the center, I am certain were made by Satan himself.
Tonight, I drove to CVS for the main purpose of purchasing some lip stick. I came out of the store with 4 Red Bulls and a large bag of Cadburry Mini Eggs and I forgot the lipstick.
Two Red Bulls and half a bag of Mini Eggs later, I am experiencing heart palpitations and I am certain I just saw Justin Beiber on the back of a rainbow unicorn flying by my window!! I am “seeing” sounds and I haven’t blinked for the past 15 minutes.
I have decided that since I am in the last week of this semester at College, I have a right to binge since I am more than likely going to pull and all nighter. My thesis on Renaissance Humanism is due tomorrow and to be honest, after writing an entire thesis, I still have no clue what it is and I am not sure what this has to do with Psychology!! My only hope is one day a client will walk into my practice and tell me that they will not be able to sleep one more night until they put their obsession with “renaissance humanism” to rest…..Oh, I will soooo be able to help them!!
Ok…back to my addiction.
I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE!!!!
Red Bull and those little chocolate devils are eventually going to be the death of me…I am certain of this. My pants are too tight and my heart is going to explode!
I have a week before next semester begins…and this semester is going to be the hardest by far. I also have a big giant humungous Unspoken issue that God knows what it is and I am in need of a miracle…
This is what I plan to do…
I am going to fast. Yep, I said it! I am fasting this week.
Not only fasting, but I am going to pray.
Now here is the kicker….Matthew 6:16-18 (NIV) says When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting…..so that it will not be obvious that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen, and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Apparently, I shouldn’t be telling you that I am fasting and praying, but I assume that I will have a “somber” look on my face for at least 48 hrs due to lack of massive amounts of caffeine and since I am quite certain with the pending snow storm we wont have school tomorrow….If you hear of a mother beating her kids, I hope that you will testify in court for me that I was in DT’s and was not in my right mind!!
Matthew 18:19 says….If two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done by my Father in Heaven. For where two or three gather in my name, there I am with them.
I am in need of a full blown miracle….so much that I am willing to end my addiction to caffeine and chocolate. Who knows, by Wednesday I may even be able to blink again!!
Please pray for me if you get a chance and pray for my Big Giant Unspoken request….God knows my heart.
Stay warm my friends!!!